Ramblings with Gary
Sunday, March 20, 2011
It has been a fun, but long, tour, and Wade and I are truly blessed that we get to take a break out in stunning Palm Springs, CA. We have met so many beautiful people along the way and are so thankful. I love being able to be still for a while and enjoy my time with Wade.
This is Wade’s 6th year now writing full time, and this is the year that I finally took the plunge to work with him full time. It has been a wonderful transition, other than the first few weeks of panic.
What have I done?
How will I book his writing workshops?
What if I fail?
What if I let Wade down?
I have had had some great advice from some wonderful friends. I also learned I need to believe in myself and also to take my own advice. Wade and I, we can do this. Yes, I can do this. The sign we have in our kitchen resonates with me: “What would you do if you knew you could not fail?” How true, and how true it is that this life is already plotted out for us. We can’t control it, all we need is to be kind, compassionate and work hard. Being happy, joyous and free is really life’s master plan.
As I have now passed my 16th year of sobriety I remember back to what grounded me, what made me connect with life again. It is the strength of the friends that lifted me up and dusted me off, a belief in something greater than me, and also learning -- every now and again, but as often as possible -- to slow down to the pace of nature. Looking at what God created, not what man created. Watching nature’s gentle flow, listening to the hum of a humming bird and the whisper of a pine.
So, as I take a break today and slow myself down, I remember how graceful life is and how, if we stop controlling it and just relax, it will all work out.
Wade and I have a few weeks before we start our tour back home, and as I shopped in the store for tonight’s dinner I was reminded of that. I saw an expiration date and thought we won’t even be here when that expires. I was filled with panic realizing how fast time goes by and remember being at the store a few years back when Wade’s mom was dying of cancer. Looking at an expiration date and thinking: Will she be here? Life is so fragile and goes by so fast. So, on this Sunday, take the time to slow down, breathe, and give someone you love a hug.
Ramblings from Gary,